Hair Journal Locs 1st set Loced

25 Dec 04

MERRY CHRISTMAS (or whatever your get down is)!!!!

So here it is Christmas day and the person who loves to talk has lost her voice. I’m sooooo sad. You know something profound is going to be said to me and I’m not going to be able to verbally respond. And my hair is matted bullet proof mat. My mama bought me a coat with a hood for Christmas! Yeah!

Day 9

You know this time last week. I was crazy!

I’m getting used to my new look!

17 Dec 04

It’s a been a whole two weeks. And I’m still loving it. I look sooo different. I’m wondering if I even had hair. I can’t seem to remember it. I have found myself looking at old picture of myself. Not longing or with regret but just in amazement with how different I look. You know I left home one way two weeks ago and I came home another way. How does one forget what one looks like. I’ve found that for a lot of people they will pick a feature and nurse it. Mine was my hair. I had these proverbial strikes against me but I was like at least I got hair! I have turned into the bald headed chick...and I love it. You know if someone made a comment about my hair being short. I wouldn’t even say anything. The thought of saying. You know I used to have hair and pull out a photo album discuss me.

17 Dec 04

I wont be updating for about a month. I’m going to be super busy with photo shoots and I’ll be in New York visiting him >>>>>

My more best-er-est friend!

I’ll make sure to take lots of picture! And post them when I return and when my schedule slows down. Thanks for reading and C-YA in June!

I wont be updating for about a month. I’m going to be super busy with photo shoots and I’ll be in New York visiting him >>>>>

My more best-er-est friend!

I’ll make sure to take lots of picture! And post them when I return and when my schedule slows down. Thanks for reading and C-YA in June!

I wont be updating for about a month. I’m going to be super busy with photo shoots and I’ll be in New York visiting him >>>>>

My more best-er-est friend!

I’ll make sure to take lots of picture! And post them when I return and when my schedule slows down. Thanks for reading and C-YA in June!

I wont be updating for about a month. I’m going to be super busy with photo shoots and I’ll be in New York visiting him >>>>>

My more best-er-est friend!

I’ll make sure to take lots of picture! And post them when I return and when my schedule slows down. Thanks for reading and C-YA in June!

The first thing I noticed was that my loose hair was much longer and shinier than my loced hair. I also felt this huge sense of guilt. It was strange. I would work on one section, get tired and work on another section. I had no idea that I had so many locs. My dilemma was: Now that I've started un-doing my hair...what am I to do about my work appearance?

Around the 24/25 of April...

I was lying in my bed, playing with one of my locs in the front. The locs was skinny and I was concerned that it may break off soon. Actually there were several locs in the front that were weak and about to break off. Whoever said over twisting is for suckas never lied.

Well I picked it out... (with the intention of combining some in the front)

I kept picking...

And picking...

Until there were no more.

This picking lasted a week.

I now have loose hair again.

18 April 07

I wont even comment on the level of work that I have to do for school. In addition to try to write this research proposal, I have to study for comps that are coming up soon (10 May). For those who don't know comps are comprehensive exams that I must take and pass (although I have already passed the classes). My comps are in 4 subject areas. 3 of the subjects are from last semester (booooo) . School is no joke, so I haven't been taking many pictures of myself.

Soooo how is my job going you must be asking. Well I don't like it. Actually I can't stand it. I'm tired when I get home (around 4 in the morning on Saturdays and Friday). It takes me days to recover. My feet hurt. MY toes are bruised. There isn't a shoe available that would make standing on your feet for 12 hours comfortable. Some of the people that work there are questionable. I will never eat there again. I thought servers just serve and go home. People hit on you...the people that work there mainly. I have been offered more d*ck there than I think I have the entire time I was married. People keep asking me why I work there. I clearly don't fit in. Trish cant stand it either. *shakes head*

So, how was it?

Some came out with no effort. Some took more effort. I noticed that the latched areas took a while to get out. I'm not gonna front. I quickly figured out that my hair should be picked while wet with something sharp. I had to cut the tips of several of them because they had sealed. It was difficult to take them down (both physical and emotional). My fingers have bruises on them. There was a point where I felt like I had went too far. But I kept on. I know many of you were disappointed that I took them out (based on messages that I got on myspace and from those I encountered in passing. Please don't let my decision to take my locs down discourage you from pursuing/continuing your own loc journey.

The reasons for taking them down was not easy. When you cultivate locs you develop a relationship with them. So it was not easy, but it was something that I had to do. I do not regret taking them down. I feel relieved actually. So many thanks for those who provided words of encouragement. I hope my journey, though short is/was/will be an inspiration to those who want to loc. Peace and Blessing.

21 April 07

I was headed to work. I usually wear my hair in curls to work. It was real cute last week but I didn't take a picture because my camera wasn't charged and frankly I have better things to do than to take pics of myself right now. I really didn't like how my curls came out this time. I did a sloppy job so I pinned them up on the side for a faux hawk.

I was feeling really unattractive about the above hair style. I had considered wear this wig. I tried to jazz it up with a scarf but I felt silly. I decided to wear locs and kinky twists (with my own hair). That's when I got the most looks. People were asking: "Ok no now what do you have?"

28 April 07

You ever feel defeated? To say that's how I felt would be an understatement. I got to a point where I felt like cutting all my hair off. It then dawned on me that I should probably take the front out so I could at least attempt a ponytail or afro puff. *Yall know I need to be studying for comps right?*

29 April 07

The next day, as you can see I was able to get it in a ponytail that was really lumpy in the front. I looked like a damn dinosaur.

It's kinda startling seeing me without the locs